Managing and Developing

I'm less than 200 days away from retirement. What happened last week? Well, for some unknown reasons, my left wrist was hurting sometime on Saturday. Ignored it for awhile, hoping that it will go away by the time I have to go to work (which is on Tuesday; Monday was a public holiday). By Monday evening, the pain worsened and told my wife that I can't drive in this condition and probably need doctor's attention to see if it will go away anytime soon. First suspicion, was gout, but the private hospital doctor suspected bacterial infection since my wrist is all red and a little swelling. He recommended me to do blood tests for both gout and bacterial infections. The answer was the latter. So I was given a three-day leave with antibiotics, anti-swelling pills and pain killers (tramadol+paracetamol). Tramadol essentially knocks me out for the whole of Tuesday and in part Wednesday (got a class and postgraduate seminar conducted online that day in my half-conscious state). I stopped taking the pain killer by Wednesday morning to make sure I can drive to campus on Thursday to conduct a test (while on medical leave). Knowing that I will still be groggy, I took leave on Friday to rest. In fact, my son drove me to Sri Sendayan mosque that Friday for Friday prayers.

In my last post about academic commitments, I wrote how I spent a substantial amount of money on journals, which is supposed to show how serious I was. I also mentioned about subscribing to Science when I was part of a management team (for scientific matters). Thought I should share here that even in management, I took it seriously despite what others might think of my management skills. My first exposure to management was through the relatively smaller departmental committees. At the time, there is this tendency of putting everything in a positive light, which at the time to me, sounded really pretentious. It is always the case that no matter how positive one is, there will always be negativity in one's midst and one needs to learn how to cope with this. Always unseen, one could try to be positive but one's superior has a negative image of you. Just like administrators tend to say that some people always complain, but usually unseen is that the administrators themselves are already complaining. This is why this 'all-positive' attitude is not authentic and the main gist behind all these are our difference of opinions on how things should be. This is why I appreciated the approach of Covey of the 7-habit fame: a principled approach. One should start correctly of what we think we are. First, us an academic in a university whose main role is teaching and research. We should have always this perspective in mind: our true appointment in the university is an academic first. (I recall in one event with people from industries, the speaker even told us we should not operate like industrial or business entities, but rather like a community of 'wise people' that sees in a different light, often with a vision of depth and long-term). Whatever administrative role we are landed with is really a secondary appointment and is not a permanent post. Being a leader in the administration does not mean one is boss and others are being subjects. As an academic, one should be considered equal to one another; the administrative position is temporary and is meant to help decision-making processes smoothly (and a responsible one), for otherwise one could end up with endless debate. Being part of an academic organization, one should realize that the main activities are really creativity-driven and such activities are highly-valued. The tendency to put constraints (or controls) run counter to this view.

When I was given an administrative role, I begin reading up management books e.g. 1-minute manager, Covey-related books, leadership, body languages, images that one carry etc. Below are some books that are in my possession.

I remembered once, I was given the task of speaking on work ethics in INSPEM, that had me brooding for days. I wanted to be able convey the idea of shifting perspectives and where we start on our outlook is an important one. This led me to refer to religious texts on what is essentially a wholistic human being - not just thought as a social and political animal, which are just partial. Below is a pic of the presentation I made.

Not sure how well it went but I dedicated one section on dealing with negativities and office politics, which are ordinary parts of life. Took some ideas from the book on the right shown above.

One must be made aware of these 'characters', not only in others but also in ourselves (no exception). I also borrowed from someone I wrote to and got a copyrighted document (the person is from abroad, and I can't find it while writing this post), on what constitutes to be a 'modern worker' (see below).

The point here is to highlight working as developing one's own self, not just 'servicing the boss'. Reflect on the Muslim belief of man as servant of God but whatever services rendered is for our own benefit, knowing well all the attributes of God. One must also take note that 'bosses' are not perfect; as humans we have impaired or limited sense of justice and moral compass,, incomplete knowledge and one's own base desires that tend to mislead us. There should always be an open platform over which workers and bosses can discuss work matters in amicable manner. Often today, we get 'unfriendly' e-mails or messages instead (doing things behind the screen is easier, right?). We also heard horrible stories (elsewhere) that authoritarian bosses resorting to bullying and worse playing revenge. To me, this type of bosses should not be there in the first place and if they realise themselves doing these, they should just resign. Again, I would highlight the fact that we are in an academic organization that has very little place for regimented management (usually this is reserved for areas of safety, security and time-criticality). So I tend to adopt a very flexible management style, encouraging creativity wherever possible. But this is me and I have seen many different styles of management. 

The other area of concern is the adoption of mechanistic management that seems not to care the actual human natural response. Sometimes we are asked to adopt a culture in a short period of time, with evidence-demanding style (without caring efforts made and that not all circumstances are within control). For instance, the adoption of ranking has always been debated and one has never really discussed the necessary (natural) dynamics to be a good top-tier university (almost always demanding good scientific culture). I believe everyone in the management now knows about Goodhart's law but yet we follow fixed KPIs almost blanketly throughout different disciplines. Once, I was told off by a senior management member to take this up with the Ministry and I was taken aback. The question is what and how to proceed? Lately, I have been interested in Snowden's dynamical systems approach, which is more open and perhaps a more natural evolution. I have yet to see any local organization taking this up. Somebody told me that it won't work in our environment. Perhaps, but then we ought to ask the question what drives this 'impossibility' and can we change the dynamics? Recently,  I have posted some document related to Snowden's work on Sensemaking which is made available free online - https://practicalactionpublishing.com/book/2622/the-learning-power-of-listening. I have yet to study this properly and hope someone is interested to see how this works.

Let me just stop here (need to prepare for my lectures) and end with this remark. I do see some younger leaders being very abrasive and very harsh in judgement. One can also see this in the social media, writing away as if everyone else is not doing enough thinking. It seems gone are the days that we have used to learn about diplomacy and more humanly concern about others. Perhaps they should reconsider their position?

Commitments and Costs

In the talk I gave at the undergraduate conference, I mention something that I did (as the extra mile) in realizing my dreams. I told the audience that I started subscribing to journals that I thought would help my career (paid from my own pocket). The first one would be International Journal of Modern Physics A and the letter version, Modern Physics Letters A, published by World Scientific, both of which I subscribed from the first issue. I roughly remembered that I got excited that World Scientific, based just next door, was about to publish their journals. I wrote to them and asked for a discounted rate for the subscription. The first issue of IJMPA had Witten's article on "Topological Tools in Ten-Dimensional Physics". It is this article that moved my interest away from supersymmetry, supergravity and even superstrings (despite the ten-dimensional physics is alluding to superstrings). The subtle use of abstract technical mathematics in physics (could be just normal physics) seems to attract me. I forgotten to highlight this matter in my talk. 

The IJMPA and MPLA subscriptions went on for a few volumes until I found myself not reading a large percentage of the articles that are experimental or phenomenological in nature. So I decided to subscribe to a journal which is closer to my specialization. At the time, World Scientific was about to publish the first issue of Reviews in Mathematical Physics in 1989. My subscription to this journal again went for a few volumes. The next journal that I subscribed to is even more specialised, namely Journal of Geometry and Physics. This went for a few years until I find myself can no longer afford it due to other financial commitments. Besides these journals, I have also subscribed to MAAS Journal of Islamic Science (much earlier) and also to the magazine Afkar Inquiry until both the journal & magazine went out of print. When I was part of administrative team in the institute, I subscribed to Science in order to get a broader view of science, with the idea that when deciding on science, my views will not be lop-sided. This too ended, after a few years.

Personal journal subscriptions are expensive. So why did I make all these subscriptions? Well, I was dead serious about being a good academician and was hoping to be comprehensive and up-to-date with things that I am interested in. Later, this ambitious outlook was humbled by less than ideal reality and by my own limited self. Today, I focus mostly on what I can do within constraints and the outlook has shrunk to a very small percentage of what I had in the beginning.

Sometime last week, I had a virtual chat with a friend from UniMaP on activities to improve our scientific environment. He has been very active in getting scientific luminaries from abroad to speak at local events. He had his impressive International STEM & Innovation Colloquia Series (ISICS) that include Nobel Laureates as speakers. We exchanged ideas on handling such activities. In comparison to what he has done, I must say what we did at UPM, say for EQuaLS, is at a smaller scale, with the modest target of building research ecosystem (as opposed to STEM goals). Knowing full well how much commitment and resources are needed to run the 'smaller' EQuaLS, I can only imagine what immense efforts are needed for him to run ISICS. For our own events, sometimes we need to put in our own 'personal funds' (big or small) to ensure that these events are successful. Even bigger challenge is to sustain the series of events. When we first started our lecture series, the earlier ones were funded well by the Science Ministry. Thereafter, no (dedicated) real funds were made available for us to organise these events. Sometimes we get scornful remarks when we tried to secure some funding for these events e.g. so how many EQuaLS do you want to do; EQuaLS 20? Any benefits? Some expect that we must have quick return of investment, for instance, establishing a research collaboration with the speakers and even producing articles together. This was not our intent in the first place; what we wanted is access to the working minds of reputable scientists through interactions among them and direct discussions with them (usually not available by reading papers alone). Also, it is very rare that collaborations are made within a short time period; normally they are build naturally over time. Indeed, forced collaborations will made us look foolish or scientifically immature. 

Another concern is that if we are doing events just for the sake of KPIs, particularly if they are seen as income generating events. Whatever fees that we were charging are often just enough to cover the expenses. With the pandemic last two years, it has become normal to hold these events as online events. This minimizes the cost but not necessarily absolves us from putting some minimal registration fees. The online events reduce the type of interactions that we have alluded earlier, which is rather a pity. I have now stopped chairing EQuaLS event and passed it to my younger colleagues (I also have avoided any other decision-making roles). Once, a friend from a different university, jokingly made the remark to me that I have become an event manager after holding so many EQuaLS event. I did try to get EQuaLS across to other universities but was not very successful partly due to it was seen more as our group's event. Whatever it is, I will let my younger colleagues to decide what they want to do with the future of EQuaLS.

Another topic that came up during my discussion with the UniMaP colleague, is the setting up of an institution that will help take care of these events. This is in fact harder to do. I think I have been part of several different committees that wanted to set up institutions like National Centre(s), National Laboratories, Joint International Labs and even attempted once to consider setting up Institute of Advanced Study, all of which are not realised. The one that we had a slight success of doing was to set up Malaysia-Italy Centre of Excellence for Mathematical Sciences, together with Polito through Prof. Lamberto Rondoni. Here is Prof. Rondoni giving congratulatory wishes to INSPEM for the 20th anniversary.

On the subject of setting up institutes, it is good for people to listen to Howard Burton's podcast at https://podcasts.apple.com/nr/podcast/howard-burton-first-principles-building-perimeter-institute/id426141945?i=1000526245464. Howard Burton was the founding director of Perimeter Institute. Also recommended is his book First Principles.

The above is just a small glimpse of what academics are doing. Thus, it pains me to see sometime how academics are being bashed indiscriminately. The cost and burden that academics have to carry went untold and their sacrifices are mostly hidden from the public eye. I do hope that things will improve later if not sooner.

209

Today, I have 209 days left to work in this university. While this body is physically ageing, I still push myself to work with the hope of finishing up my duties and often after work, my mind is pretty exhausted. However, it does seem that whatever one does is never enough. But let me start with good thins first.

As I have mentioned in the last post, I have been invited to the National Physics Undergraduate Project Conference as a keynote speaker. When I was first approached, I asked them what precisely they want me to speak on. They give me a tentative title "How to be a physicist". I searched the web for such a title and I thought it wasn't that enlightening. Thus, I counter-suggested the title "The Physicist: Some Modes of Thoughts" because this will let me explore what should be on the physicist's mind. I began reading some books that I had including Penrose's The Road to Reality book. It took me a while for me to conjure up some story. Essentially I left many other duties just to do this and put off a PhD student appointment on Friday afternoon since I did not want to get distracted from my brewing up ideas for my presentation. I began finally preparing the slides by Friday evening. The slide preparation continued on Saturday until Sunday 3am (skipped some Raya invitations that my other half went to). I was pretty exhausted thereafter and had a little nap before the presentation.

The presentation was recorded as FB live. On the Webex platform, I could see there were about 30+ people attended (including organizers), but on FB I saw more than a hundred views. I decided to download the video from FB and put it up on my YouTube channel so more can access it (apparently the video is copyrighted and YouTube said that the video cannot be monetized - which I did not intend to anyway). So here is the video.

I hope this will be useful to others.

Now let me get to something rather negative. On Friday itself, I received a warning letter regarding my reports for my research grant. This is due to having not sending in the second correction needed for my report - the first correction was submitted and I did not expect the second correction. Personally, I find this is very strange that reports are even "refereed" by administrators (like papers). I certainly think this should change, allow the researchers to focus on the real research, and trust researchers more. 

Just today, I discussed with an officer from INSPEM to help me out together with my PhD student. I really hope that this can be settled soon. Really appreciate the help. I can't imagine the future of researchers who are being heaped with extraneous duties which do not help much the research and teaching (the core duties) but only help administrators. Coupled this with an environment where academics had to report to different administrators and even support staff. (Quite a few times I have been told off by a support staff for various reasons with the thinking that academic staff haven't got enough on their hands.) Again, I do hope that someone will take this up.

Award, Upcoming Retirement and the Talk

Sometime last week, I received a call regarding an event whether I can be present or not. It is Majlis Gemilang Putra for 2022 (held yesterday) where staff are given awards for their work. It seems that I was one of the recipient for Jasa Putra award.

I was told to be early for the ceremony. Given that our traffic tend to be unpredictable, I decided to go to campus early yesterday, almost after Fajr prayers. Manage to get a bite or two, to make sure that I will have energy during the ceremony. I managed to arrive in campus before 7.30am. Given the advice that I should be early at the Main Hall, I began my walk to the hall at 7.45am. On arrival, I thought I was too early.

The event actually started roughly more than an hour later. Luckily, the Jasa Putra awards were given quite early in the ceremony after the JasaMu Dikenang awards given to relatives of staff members who have passed away. So, here is my picture accepting the award (taken by my ex-PA in INSPEM)

There were supposed to be others from the Faculty who should be receiving the same award but apparently they are not there, apart from Nik Afida.

I am happy to receive the award and much indebted to the university as a place where I have built my career on. It is nice to know, once in a while, that our work is being appreciated by others. Most of the time, we tend to have our self-doubts on how much we have done and whether it means anything to anyone. One thing I know is that when I join UPM (during an interview), I wanted to establish theoretical physics in the university and I think I have achieved this to a certain extent (maybe not as much as I wanted to). Putting myself down to earth, I am aware that the award is given to those who have retired or about to retire in 2022. Other awards are more distinguished in the sense that they are given to those who are very excellent in their work. 

Some people asked me what are my retirement plans. Let me say leaving the university for me is not easy; I have still desire to live up my scientific dreams and was hoping that it is realised within UPM. On the other hand, I have done what I can and I have to grow still, perhaps explore other avenues to realise whatever ambitions I have left. Despite what others might think, I am not a quitter and whatever decision I have made in the past is based on arising circumstances. I have learned a lot, being part of management of the various institutes, and the experience has broadened my horizon. To my younger colleagues, my advice is to practice patience and resilience. If I had been a quitter, I would probably have left theoretical physics altogether. Reality in universities today (local or abroad) are faced with new challenges (often self-created and self-propagated) and it does not tally with the traditional university and idealism one used to have in our youth. Work based on facts and not emotions, but use emotions (passion) to drive important and long term matters. Place respect where they are due; most academics are as talented as one is but it is always circumstances that make us modify our thoughts and eventually bury talent and creativity. Worse, when our ego gets in the way. In matters of disagreement, always keep this in mind. It is often easy to go on the complaining mode without having a clue on how constructive can one be when faced with undesirable problems. This article could help us with such a predicament.

Perhaps after retirement, I suppose, one of the things I could do is to give talks to the younger generation. For instance, this upcoming Sunday, I will be giving a talk at an undergraduate conference (see poster below). I was a bit surprised that I was invited because I don't consider myself that good of a speaker particularly on a general topic. I even asked them whether they would like to consider younger theorists instead. This is in part due to I still have bit of work left to do (one PhD thesis to examine and another to chair, my own students to graduate and a few projects in mind). Nevertheless, I have agreed and currently reading some materials to build ideas on.

Meeting My Side of the Family

Our early 'Eid days are spent in Segamat at my sister-in-law's place. On returning home to Seremban, the first 'Eid weekend had my in-laws returning their visit. It was only on the second 'Eid weekend, that I got to meet my side of the family. My sister-in-law Aishah (wife of my late brother Ahmad Tajuddin) held a Yasin and tahlil reading for our family members that have left us. Here are some pics:

The last pic is me with my youngest elder brother who is a musician; it has been quite a while since I saw him face-to-face and I was delighted that he was able to attend the event. Going back home after the event, something not so good happened. Our car was almost knocked by another car whose driver was playing with his phone. My eldest son who was driving the car was furious. Indeed we all are then, but it is important not to make the incident influenced us the whole day. These days, I tend to turn on the Qur'anic mp3 I had (with translations) while driving, to always calm me down,

The last weekend was another occasion of us meeting my side of the family when my sister and niece held an open house event. Here are some pics.

Here is our family group photo.

It is a pity that my two youngest sons could not be there for these two functions as they are at their respective colleges. Indeed, our half-semester started just after the Eid (first) week, and thus, the only time that we can move around is during the weekends.

Worries Abound

Presently, we are back to four of us in the house with our two youngest sons are back in their colleges. My second youngest drove his own car back to IIUM campus last Sunday, while me and my other half drove back our youngest back to UiTM campus in Jasin. Apparently, the campus canteen was still closed when we were there, and so we brought him out for lunch in Merlimau. Here is a pic of him before we left the campus.

The Saturday before, we had visitors to our house from our in-laws. On their return back to their homes, one family had positive Covid-19 test results. That startled us a bit. So, we started our own testing. My third son in IIUM is tested positive and is now under quarantine. For us, in the house, none of us have tested positive. This is my own test result.

I was worried a little bit since I have been feeling very tired all this week, unsure because of the travel and/or our current Syawal fasting. With the result(s), one worry is now out of the way. My hope is to get to meet my side of the family in these coming weeks.

Another worry is my graduate students. I hope they can graduate/do their viva before I take my leave for my retirement. One of the problems faced is to get the examiners for them. Despite what we have done, we are still far away from establishing ourselves in the international arena (that experts refer to us for certain topics). Often what we try to do is to find examiners who are within our contact network and the experts involved perhaps are aware of what we are trying to explore. Beyond this network, often results in the negative (not agreeing to examine).

Having said the above, breaking through the international scene is certainly not easy, particularly with all the intense competition. Even experts find such difficulties to make a breakthrough. I recall Bob's tweet in his attempt to put out diagrammatic reasoning for quantum theory. He even said in his public lecture here that there is an ego problem in the academia; how things tend to be more acceptable when they are made more difficult and not easier. I believe that most of us had the experience of one's article being declined publication simply because it is not interesting enough. Not known enough internationally sometimes make such events more probable. I have always advised my own students (and my own self), not every research results are deemed publishable. What more if the problem is considered as merely a mathematical exercise and hence the attempt to cloak them in much more technical language. On the other hand, I do understand the need to be more technical as science progresses with more difficult problems or the need to be more abstract as one digs deeper into the foundations. In fact, I do think our problems here are different; there is a tendency to evade difficult problems and go only for easier ones. This is the story of my life: trying to make theoretical physics to be more acceptable among our local community.

Recently, when Dennis Sullivan won the 2022 Abel Prize, I was 'surprised' there was very little coverage of the news in our local (social) media. Sure enough, Abel Prize is less popularly known than the Nobel Prize locally, but there seems to be even very little stir among local mathematicians about Dennis Sullivan's Abel Prize award (also true for earlier awardees). The topic for which Dennis Sullivan is awarded the prize is indeed technical, something that have stirred my interest in my PhD journey i.e. algebraic topology. So when the 2022 Abel Prize news came, I have been wanting to write something on some parts of his discoveries for our educated public here. This was only realized during the Eid holidays. I have been carrying around articles on rational homotopy theory, hoping to find a better way of describing it. Finally this came out. However, I felt it is rather a rushed job. Looking back, I thought I could have done better in explaining ideas about differential graded algebras in cohomology, piecewise linear manifolds where the theory is more relevant and many others (even the hand-drawn diagrams looked ugly). This would have made the article longer and if pursued, the article might not have seen the light of day. I certainly hope that the blogpost could spark some interests among local theorists or mathematicians. Yes, I know it does not contribute to my KPIs.

I guess I will continue writing such posts after I retire, just to bring unpopular topics upfront. I'm still unsure of my post-retirement future. Certainly I will continue to pursue my research interests only for my own satisfaction. Yesterday, I revealed some wishes or fantasies I have conjured up during Ramadhan to my younger colleague. I do wish I get some understanding of our Holy Qur'an as the ultimate miracle. Playful thoughts that I have entertained is the use of complex networks and grammar algebras to study the Qur'an. However, without mastering Arabic language, these will just be fantasies. In any case, I just want to be a better person in the hope that it helps me in the hereafter.

Early days in Syawal

I need to remember this day, 6 Syawal 1443 (May 7, 2022) to realize the day that I could have met my maker.

Rewinding back a few days earlier. We were mostly at sister-in-law's place in Bukit Siput with me and one of my son sleeping at Station Inn Hotel nearby. 

The second of Syawal saw many more of my in-laws coming to Bukit Siput. I was there until sometime after lunch since I wanted to rest. The pic below shows the group photo of the gathering (without me in the picture) plus pics of me as a grandpa playing with the kids.

The next day, two of my sons went back to Seremban as Ihsan (the second eldest) needs to go back to work. Here is their pic at my brother-in-law's place.

On that day too, I was having severe stomach-ache and had to get some medication from a nearby pharmacy. The suspect is simply food-poisoning since there were others who got it too (including my other-half). So thereafter, I tried to be careful of what I eat. We went to my brother-in-law's place later that evening.

For dinner that night, we just had burger from a stall nearby.

On 4th of Syawal, we went to Kluang for a wedding of the son of a close friend of my other half. Here is a pic of her with her close friends at the wedding.

After the wedding, we went straight home - my eldest drove the whole way back to Seremban and we reached home late in the afternoon since it was a slow crawl all the way.

On Friday, I went to Bank Islam to get a document for my retirement and also open an account for my youngest who applied for PTPTN. Thereafter I experienced again severe stomach ache, again perhaps from something I ate the day before. I skipped Friday prayers and rested most of the time. That night, my son bought tickets to watch Dr. Strange 2: Multiverse of Madness. I enjoyed the movie since it did not quite go the way that I have imagined and I love surprises. For me, I go to the movies to enjoy, not caring much for how logical it was or how good the actors or their CGIs are (not there as a movie critic, just fun family time).

After the movie, around midnight, I experience severe stomach pain but this time filling up my chest. Called out to my wife to get my nitroglycerin sublingual tablets and several minutes thereafter, the pain eased a little. So today, I woke up feeling a little fragile. We are having guests today, both my brother and my in-laws. So, went out a little to get some food. Tonight, I will continue to rest.

Eid 1443

Well, today we celebrated our Eid-ul-Fithri and was considered a surprise by many Malaysians as they were expecting it to be tomorrow. I already knew from my limited reading that there is always a possibility that Eid will be celebrated today but many considered this with low probability. This variability is because that we follow the rule of sighting of the 'new' crescent moon. According to this report, the new moon sighting was observed in one location (unconfirmed report, it was Labuan) yesterday. Given that Eid tends to be a big celebration and in Malaysia, this includes preparation of meals for families, relatives and visitors, many were caught off-guard yesterday. For us, it was mainly our plans to get back to my other half's hometown that got changed, from the evening on the eve of Eid to the morning of Eid itself. My second son was even working last night and came back from work only this morning. 

I do not follow all the technical details about the new (phase of) moon sighting but there were a lot of discussions online about it; most of which can be ignored but some are pretty interesting (more technical). My only regret is that some people are making a mockery out of this matter. Certainly, there is room for improvement but this is best left to those who are really in the field or who are serious of studying such matters (not the ignorant lot). I remember buying this book by Mohammad Ilyas, thinking that I wanted to learn some the intricate details associated with the Islamic calendar (I remember vaguely the question about the international dateline - see the review of a related book by the same author). I never really got to it. I guess, my question here, is how can we do better? Can we avoid the odd situation of Malaysia celebrating Eid a day earlier than Singapore, given that we are in the same time zone? Note that prior to 1982, East Malaysia had a different time zone from Peninsular Malaysia; would it make any difference assuming that the location of new moon sighting was said to be in Labuan (out of my ignorance). As I said, perhaps best left to the experts in the area (and I'll stick to mine).

Here are some pics and video for today's Eid's celebration.

Prior to Eid, we were worried about our cat Lofa who has difficulty beathing - we were told that there is inflammation of the lungs (see video below). So yesterday, we sent Lofa to a different vet who had more facilities to treat her.

So today, the clinic send this pic of her. Hope she is doing better; will be terribly sad if we lose her.