Falling

Yesterday I was supposed to send my youngest son back to college. Unfortunately, I was not too well and my other half advised that I stay home given there is a high expectation that the traffic back home (northbound) will be really heavy. Earlier I had transferred some sum of pocket money to my youngest hopefully enough for two weeks. I felt rather sad that I had to ration a little the money I gave to him (wished I was richer) and now I was not able to send him back to college. Here is a picture of him during dinner after having his hair cut earlier.

That morning, I spend almost half a day in bed trying to ease the pain. When I got up for Dzuhr, I spend a little time listening to music. The lyrics to Faouzia's new song "Don't Ever Leave Me" strikes a chord.

Cause pain is holy, pain is holy .... When I'm falling, I know you hear me calling

Despite the upbeat nature of the song, the lyrics are quite deep, just like one reaction YouTuber had noted about the song. Not sure what Faouzia had in mind for this song, but I can take the lyrics as spiritual. Whatever pain one is experiencing, one knows that it prepares for the greater pain whenever one is leaving this world. The second part of that lyric quote, whatever weakness and difficult circumstances I go through, His Guidance and Mercy is what I pray for.

Last night (after sleeping so much), I was pretty much awake. The oldest cat in the house, Stephanie (the sole survivor from the kittens Dr. Chan gave me) slept in our room. She almost died when she was young due to parvoviral infection. She is now close to my eldest son particularly after she had some concussion due to a fall and her head tend to slant a little (experiencing vertigo). This week however, my eldest son is working night shifts and is not aound at night. Thus, she came to our room instead. May Allah help us as we have helped the cats in our house.