Occasionally, some people asked me what happen to my Deputy Director post at INSPEM. If possible, I will try to answer briefly (in line with this post). If they ask me further, of course, I have my side of story that I can tell but this does not invalidate my health reasons. Some do not believe this is the real reason. I certainly do not fake my health problems but perhaps there may be psychological reasons, which led to my predicament. In any case, I hope to grow fitter soon; I've walked and climbed stairs more ever since I'm back at the department. As far as I'm concerned, I'm happy to move on and focus more on things in the future that will help me in the hereafter. If some still have issues with me, we can still discuss in a civilised manner and work for amicable solutions or otherwise just let the matter go as I did. I have accepted the past as my fate even if I do not like it. Whatever stories they would like to hear, there are always many sides to a story and I've grown enough to be aware that one always reason contextually with whatever partial information that one has; thus the so-called truth is often grey.
One change that I'm conscious since I left is that I am less stressful when I drive to work and back. Even with the most annoying driver on the road, I tend not to get all worked up. I have also avoided working long hours at the office as I don't see the urgency to do so now. And it is good that I reach home well before Maghrib. I try to spend more time with the family as I should.
Recently the family lost Belang (November 28, 2019), one of the oldest cat that we had. We had sent Belang to the clinic and knew about his kidney failure. As his condition worsened, we sent Belang to the clinic again so that he gets a proper care, Just a day before we wanted to collect Belang from the clinic, the vet called saying that Belang is gone. My other half who is more attached to the cats, was very saddened that Belang did not spent the final hours at home. Here are some pics of Belang.
Not long after this, just two nights ago, we found another old cat of ours, Shaggy, was oozing blood from her mouth and nose. It was in the middle of the night when this happened and thus we had to wait till the next morning, for us to send her to the clinic. All we could do then was to clean her up. She has also been losing weight over the last month or so. The tests thus far shown no signs of anything sinister. We hope that she will be alright. In a way, I sort of miss Shaggy since she is always in the room with us.
Presently there are a few things on my mind. First, is the Physics Without Frontiers that we hope to do early next year. We are still finalising this matter but it will be in the form of EQuaLS resurrected with some changes. The other is the quantum project we wished to do for the 12th Malaysia Plan. This will probably be something that will occupy my time before I retire. I hope it will be something good that I will leave behind. This coming week, we will have an INSPEM event which I hope to attend and a few days after, I will turn 57. Hoping of good things to come.
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