Weekend With Our Youngest

Last Friday, we picked up our youngest son from UiTM Jasin to simply spend the weekend with us. Earlier in the week, I found out that we have forgotten to top up his pocket money and he almost ran out of cash. We immediately transferred some money to him. Felt guilty about it.

Our weekend was pretty uneventful though, but my other half brought my sons to a wedding near Paroi (I stayed home, ontok-ontok). On Saturday night (after more than an hour of blackout), my eldest son treat us for dinner at our usual eatery place Sanee Hijrah. The food is quite good and it is relatively cheaper there. Other cheaper eateries are simply the 'mamak' restaurants. There is a rise in the number of hipster cafes and we only go there for special occasions. Eating at home remains the cheapest and eating out is just to break the monotonicity. Also, with my sons working (they tend to come back late during Maghrib or after Maghrib), and then we are simply tired to go out. My eldest often goes to work around 6.30am n the morning (during day shifts) and my other half often prepares breakfast around 5am in the morning. It is only on Sunday that she gets a break. At some point, I should revive my cooking skills though I have to say I tend to be slower in preparing meals (just like st everything else, I guess).

Yesterday after breakfast and Mydin shopping for our necessities and for our youngest son's needs, we send him back to UiTM Jasin. Luckily there was no traffic jam on our way there and back. We stopped at Ayer Keroh's RnR to get our son some lunch as a change. Normally, we will actually go to Merlimau for lunch but this time we wanted to save time. Note added: I met Dr. Wan Daud while we were filling up petrol for our car. We used to commute together to UPM from Seremban. He told me that he is now 79 but he looks steady though slimmer. I hope all is well with him.

On one's development side, lately I have been listening to talks by Prof. Jiang Xueqin. He is getting very popular especially when he has successfully predicted certain world events with him being able to extract core ideas and using game theory to look at possible outcomes. For a sampler of his talks, one can go to this link. I wanted to pass some of his talks to my family but some of his talks can get controversial, particularly when he touched upon secret societies. I can understand that he s only using these narratives as tools for his analysis. In the Muslim psyche however, no one is omniscient and omnipotent and one should not hold too tightly on opinions and thoughts from whatever analysis.

Hijri Birthday and The Trip to Melaka

Yesterday was my Hijri birthday and I'm 65 according to the Hijri calendar, two years older than my 'Gregorian' age. So what did I do yesterday?

Well, my kids have chipped in part of their income to realise the idea that I go through some check-up for my heart conditions. The idea started with my other half arranged for her sister to take the advantage of a package at Pantai Hospital for a heart echo test costing around four hundred ringgit. Then why not I do the same? Thus, our trip happened and we arrived around 9am in the morning. 

I was fasting then thinking there would be a blood test. As we discussed with the doctor (Dr. Baqlish), he enquired about my medical history and my family medical history and he suggested that I do angiogram CT scan instead. I looked at my other half then, she immediately agreed. Such test would cost a few thousand ringgit instead of few hundred ringgit. I was still fasting despite there will be no blood test and waited at the imaging diagnostic section. The first trial was unsuccessful because my heart was beating too fast. This is in part due to the slight pain sensation and the internal heating senssation when they injected in the dye. I have forgotten how it felt like and the sensation send my heart racing. Since the first imaging failed, they send me out to rest first and they gave me some medication to make my heart calm down. They did it twice, first, the medication taken orally when I was resting, and second, just before the second imaging takes place by injection. The imaging, I guess, went through.

We had to wait until after lunch before we get the results. Finally, the doctor call us to go to the imaging diagnostic unit again and see him there. He showed us the images and told us it was not aas clear as he wanted but it was enough to conclude some results. The one most concerning is that there is one blockage right at the main vein, in addition to many minor ones in the smaller veins. So there I was, not knowing how to react, but I was already thinking about stents. But the doctor immediately cancelled that thought as he pointed out that the blockage was at a junction of veins and if a procedure is carried out, it will be a complicated one. The cost to do such procedure at a prvate hospital would probably be almost twice that of my other half's procedure for CSF leak. Thus, the doctor was already having in mind, a referral letter to Institut Jantung Negara (IJN - National Heart Institute).

Well, that was my birthday present, knowing about my heart more than I used to before. I certainly hope my heart is in a 'better' place. The immediate action needed to be done, as the doctor remarked, is to continue with my plavix medication to ensure ease of blood flow. I will need to show this letter to the doctor in the university and get the doctor's support letter as I was told that a letter from a public hospital is needed for treatment in IJN. The rest? My thoughts are already clouded with many things in mind. 

As we made our way home, I joked with my son is maybe I should now start a podcast called Tengking Muslim (with reference to the famous podcast The Thinking Muslim). It is perhaps my cynical response to the Islamophobe sphere. The world does not seem to be evolving into a better place with talks of land-grabbing expansionism in place, treating people of not their colour or creed as vermins. I have seen how many posts that try to demonise Muslims to an extent that I would like to abandon the social media. The small part of me with whatever little time I have left, need to make small moves  Sometimes we joke about this (see this post), but on a serious note, one should not lose hope and have faith in the wisdom of Allah; the one piece of advice that I hope my children will learn.

Rest Of The Week One January 2026

Last Wednesday, we went to UPM Health Center to get my stock of medication as the ones I had is almost finished. Like before, the doctor that saw me this time is different from the previous one.

Even with the records available online, I had to explain my health problems to the doctor particularly about my back pain problems (and hence insisting to get Tramadol as the doctor wanted to give me a milder one). Told the doctor I had taken up both Gabapentin (for the nerves) and Tramadol the night before because I needed the pain relief. The doctor was surprised since these medication will make me extremely drowsy, but I told him that I take Tramadol only when necessary. Had my blood sample taken that day (four tubes!). The doctor asked if I could come next week but my other half had arranged an appointment at Pantai Hospital in Melaka for an echo heart test next week. There was a relatively cheaper package for this test and my sons offered to pay for the expenses. Thus, I replied that I could not come the week after due to this and will come back one month after to get the blood test results.

In the evening, my eldest gave us a dinner treat at the local Middle Eastern restaurant since my second son Ihsan is going back to JB the next day. Forgotten to take pics at the time since most of us were very hungry. Late afternoon the next day, Ihsan went back to JB as he will be having night-shift work for the week after.

Also on Wednesday, my younger colleague told me that our paper has appeared online. We knew that it was accepted sometime in July and was waiting for it to appear. The paper was based on the work of my former PhD student. It was a problem given to him earlier in his PhD studies before I retired. Parts of the work I had also presented during the SQST conference in December 2024 with generalizations (also was mentioned briefly in the paper). Despite the ad-hockery criticism during the conference (most quantum works have ad-hockery elements), the work has good potential to be explored further within this traditional quantization framework and there could be some interesting physical implications. 

On the whole, there is much t be learned about this problem and one should not be overly satisfied with the current achievement/paper published. In my opinion, we have gradually gone through the phases I have mentioned in my speech long time ago:

In my humble opinion, we have yet to establish ourselves within the last phase and we need to work harder (creating more intense research ecosystem) to achieve this. Exploring the work along this direction might just get us there.

The First Post of 2026

I was mostly resting in bed during the first few days of 2026. Thought I should now post something. My son from JB came back home on Sunday. Like always, we celebrate his cominng home by going out to eat outside in order for him to have a meal at the new eatery PnC Kitchen in Ikon, Seremban 2. Despite that I'm still in ontok-ontok mode, I thought I should be fair to all my kids so that each of them have at least one meal at this new place. The place is a bit pricey and it is always fully packed. In any case, my son had just transferred some cash to me and I was just returning him a treat. Here are some pics (as you can see, we had to sit outside).

Another educational post in my family WhatsApp group: an AI-generated video of John Mearsheimer's explaining Malaysia's decision to move currency and trading towards the gold standard, beginning in mid 2024. Thereafter, according to the video, several negotiations and counter-explanations were made revolving around arguments of others against this move. The video again has been removed (strangely) and I can't find any reliable information about the matter. If it is true, it is certainly a bold move to make our country less dependent on the US currency.

Another AI-generated video that I find interesting is "Emad Mostaque and the ideas from his book "The Last Economy"". The YouTube link (if it is not removed) is simply a plain audio clip which offers a (better) summary of Emad Mostaque's book "The Last Economy". I did not post this to my family group since I have already told them about Emad Mostaque's work before. The clip is over 1 hour 46 minutes offering a very good glimpse of what is inside the book, much better than the one I have given before (see this post). I saw that for the published version of my post in Majalah Sains, the editor actually had removed one added note that I wrote in the blog, about how to perceive 'harmonic flow' with respect to learning, which I thought was an interesting observation (but this is fine; it makes a smoother read). If I were to improve the post (or article), I would have added some diagrams (I will only describe them in words here and you can imagine how they look like). First to describe the first two flows (gradient and circular), one imagines a flat surface representing the phase space. Locally, one can then consider a radial (gradient) flow orthogonal to the (concentric) circular flow on the flat surface. The harmonic flow would then be added structures to this bland planar description i.e. by adding a height degree of freedom perpendicularly transverse to the surface. So one can add as many peaks and dips to the surface engineered at will where the circular flows will represent topographical contours and the radial flows will be flows ascending to a peak or descending to a dip. This will give an idea of what Mostaque meant by 'geometric engineering'. Of course these are all theoretical and the challenge is how to realise these given the compound civilizational variable of MIND. Mostaque did say in this podcast, that a technical paper will be written to detail out how these work and I'm looking forward to such paper.

The Last Post of 2025

I guess I should do one last post for 2025. The last few posts that I did are mainly to explain myself for not being able to help others that much. While this is a personal blog and I should be able to write what I want, I will try to do more blog entries that are more educational. Nobody really wants to read one's rants and personal problems that much.

So for 2026, the resolution is ... still 1920 × 1080 ... just kidding. I guess, I want to do more educational writing, sharing more of what I know in the hope of they pass as good deeds. But let's see how it goes. Sometimes one gets overly ambitious and only a minute fraction of them gets realized.

With the family, I tend to share what I think would be useful to them in general but this I do within our famly's WhatsApp. Here is one of them - Why Big Companies are Leaving KL for Negeri Sembilan (You Need to Know). This will inform the forthcoming development in Negeri Sembilan and hopefully it will help us to strategize for our future. Related to this, I also shared this piece of news of semiconductor industry in Senawang. I have also shared what Yanis Varoufakis explaining about trade and money but unfortunately the video has been taken off. I managed to write the main points of his explanation:

• In 1971, US President Richard Nixon, severe the relation between US currency with the gold standard (The Nixon Shock).
• In 1973, was the oil crisis and US made the Petrodollar agreement enforcing oil be traded in US currency.
• In June 2024, this agreement ended and there is a gradual move of oil trading in non-US currencies.

Yanis explained the future may be rather unsettled and it is best that one gets prepared for whatever outcomes there might be. I did not know all these before and I am certainly no economist but this scares me (a little?). My awareness now is perhaps triggered by earlier read on Emad Mostaque and Svozil's paper in this post. 

Just this afternoon, I have finished commenting of the revised paper that my former PhD  student has done and hopefully it will get published. There is still another paper to be edited hopefully done in January 2026. As a consequence, I have been reading about entropy (since the two papers dealt with Tsallis entropy). First, there is a pedagogical article by Baez, "What is Entropy?" that seems to have grown out of his tweets. Another is this book by Denbigh & Denbigh, which I bought as a second hand book from Galloway & Porter in Cambridge.

I thought of finishing the book before the year ends and that is not going to happen. I normally picked up the book when I am going to bed and you can guess what happens next. I'm not even half-through yet butthe book is centred around how the term entropy has been used as incomplete knowledge to ignorance and from ignorance to subjectivity. The latter seems to be the problem. It demonstrates how problems can arise when a term is being used loosely and this happens quite a lot in the popularization of science. Talking about 'loose' usage, I remember how a famous social science professor criticise my working paper in a meeting, saying that the paper is 'too loose'. From then on, I started to learn that working papers are best written in a legalistic language and to a certain extent thee seems to be a formula or procedure in writing them. I was never taught about all this but I have learned this on the go and from examples that people gave me. In meetings, one can go on indefinitely discussing a working paper and its 'many-worlds' interpretation. So this e who aspire to be in the management, be prepared ....

Falling

Yesterday I was supposed to send my youngest son back to college. Unfortunately, I was not too well and my other half advised that I stay home given there is a high expectation that the traffic back home (northbound) will be really heavy. Earlier I had transferred some sum of pocket money to my youngest hopefully enough for two weeks. I felt rather sad that I had to ration a little the money I gave to him (wished I was richer) and now I was not able to send him back to college. Here is a picture of him during dinner after having his hair cut earlier.

That morning, I spend almost half a day in bed trying to ease the pain. When I got up for Dzuhr, I spend a little time listening to music. The lyrics to Faouzia's new song "Don't Ever Leave Me" strikes a chord.

Cause pain is holy, pain is holy .... When I'm falling, I know you hear me calling

Despite the upbeat nature of the song, the lyrics are quite deep, just like one reaction YouTuber had noted about the song. Not sure what Faouzia had in mind for this song, but I can take the lyrics as spiritual. Whatever pain one is experiencing, one knows that it prepares for the greater pain whenever one is leaving this world. The second part of that lyric quote, whatever weakness and difficult circumstances I go through, His Guidance and Mercy is what I pray for.

Last night (after sleeping so much), I was pretty much awake. The oldest cat in the house, Stephanie (the sole survivor from the kittens Dr. Chan gave me) slept in our room. She almost died when she was young due to parvoviral infection. She is now close to my eldest son particularly after she had some concussion due to a fall and her head tend to slant a little (experiencing vertigo). This week however, my eldest son is working night shifts and is not aound at night. Thus, she came to our room instead. May Allah help us as we have helped the cats in our house.

A Day At Immersify KL

On Thursday, it was a public holiday for Christmas. My son Izhar made the spontanoeus plan of going to Immersify KL. Earlier, my other half told us about the interesting places of visual excitement that she found on social media. Thus, Izhar immediately acted on realizing her wish and booked tickets for us online. I was still on ontok-ontok mode but I went along to make this a family outing partcularly with my youngest is back hoem. My eldest could not go since he needed a rest given that he is working night shifts this week. So let the pics and videos tell the story. Here we are as we waited for the (booked) schedule for us to enter the place.

Here are the pics when we enter the place where they had all the immersifying images on display.

Here are some videos:

Generally, it was a good experience. Some of the 3D-images require one to close an eye to fully maximize the effects. I was told by my other half that there are other similar places with dinosaurs etc. We did not stay that long at the place and we went back straight to Seremban after that. We thought of bringing our youngest to the new eatery PnC Kitchen that I have mentioned here.

The night before we wanted to bring him to have dinner there but the place was fully packed. We were told there is no vacant spots for us and we had to go somewhere else.

Fortunately, for the late lunch after coming back from KL, we were able to eat at the place; simply just to be fair so that our youngest experience his meal there. I think during the week with our kids, I have overeaten and that cause me to have some digestive problems. Normally I eat very little and will stop eating before feeling full. With meals outside, I ate 'more' in order not to waste the meal we have paid for.